Resuming a life of sorts
Well minus the post yesterday, its been a couple weeks and I guess it is time to start updating again, especially as my head has gotten on a bit straighter.
Recently a major life changing event truly affected every aspect of my life.
Without going into detail the biggest thing that has changed has been the relationship with my family.
I have pulled back and took leave from Blackfriars Theatre, stepping down from the board and away from design duties. Career suicide...possibly.
In conjunction with that I have also pretty much ceased GFMedia Entertainment in its current state. Taking on no new jobs, and wrapping up those that were in the works.
How am I handling this change, well right now okay. In another month who knows. I feel the biggest thing that has happened is a return of happiness between my wife and I. I literally feel like we are dating again, and can only hope that this feeling can continue. Without the distractions of a million things pulling me away and my attention for 2 weeks out of every month, I feel we have struck a bond that hasn't been there for a while.
The ability to enjoy the company of my girls on a nightly basis and spend time with the weekends has been a big blessing. I have noticed change in them that has only increased my happiness.
Am I happy with the way all this came to pass, absolutely not, but I wouldn't trade the last two weeks for any other time in my life.
I have definitely realized that there are a lot of things that I need to work on to not only keep this happiness, but increase it.
Aside from all of this I would like to start creating a stream of consciese comic book, and finish up recording my CD. These are personal goals, that I now must work in time, but things I feel need to be done before I can ever go back into Theatre or business.
I have lost a lot as time has gone by these last five years ( intresting that I use "last five years" as it is one of my favorite musicals, and has given me a warning of what can become of delicate love and marriage) but I feel my talents have decreased in art and music, and for all of my life those intwined with love have fueled me. With love renewed it is time to start bringing the others back.
Is this a journey I am ready for,...God I hope so.
Is this a journey I can handle...God I pray so.
Is this a journey that will make a difference...God only knows.
